i haven’t written
because i am under the assumption that our life
with or without cancer
(but especially without)
is not all that interesting
(to you)
certainly not any more interesting than anyone else’s life
with or without cancer.
but when events with cancer do happen,
and yes, even in remission, they happen
all the time,
i will write.
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i keep telling leanne to write down her [...]
last january, i had decided to re-read it,
tim o’brien’s masterpiece about war and its precursors,
the aftermath and the process.
i brought it with me on my trip to washington dc,
and was reading it when i got the call from leanne,
the call saying that she had cancer.
i remember rushing back to my cousin’s apartment,
grabbing my clothes and [...]
fear not, the doctor is in.
on this day of pumpkins and leaves and fresh chills in the air, i am not afraid. not afraid of the witches or goblins or infinite masses of young boys swinging swords and guns.
better yet, i am not afraid of cancer. at least not right now.
another 3 months have gone [...]
since i’ve written.
since i couldn’t sleep -
long time meaning, in our new view of time,
weeks.
but here i am at 4am on a friday awake.
leanne was in bed next to me, and lydia next to her
and then me, listening.
i’ve been listening a lot lately.
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two weeks ago we heard 8 gunshots.
i got up and went to the [...]
a lot of people ask about it.
they see me spinning it around and around.
a nervous habit, i suppose.
it was made by a woman down the street
who specializes in making rings that live inside
of other rings, so that the inner one
spins and spins.
i came up with the word.
surprise, surprise.
recently i noticed that i didn’t have any [...]
1 year ago today, we grinned and danced in the open sky in the middle of wyoming as rudy and heather exchanged vows…( i would later come to identify this day as the starting point of our second pregnancy)….
2 years ago today, we felt humbled and inspired and safe in the red wood forest as [...]
and so were you, whoever you are.
i’m not a big stats guy, honest.
i don’t put special links on the blog,
i don’t sell advertising,
i don’t comment on other blogs to get people to come here,
i’ve never been all that interested in hits.
but today, this blog, this blog
about nothing more than leanne vs. cancer
reached 300,000 of them.
that’s…well…insane.
really.
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i [...]
well, let’s see….
i’ve been back at work for a couple of months now, it’s been really hot, it’s raining really hard right now (it’s always a good sign of boredom to talk about the weather, right? :)), i checked in on liddy the other day when she was supposedly taking a nap and found her [...]
