it’s 6:50 am. we’ll leave here in a little bit for our first chemo treatment. i’m finishing breakfast that danny made me to build up my energy some. as he handed it to me, he said “you know how strongly i feel like we’re gong to be together forever?, even more so than after that wedding thing”. i know, danny, i know.
i slept halfway decently last night- not very soundly, but peaceful still. i chose the recliner again (thanks chris and ari) to try to not have too much pressure on the bone marrow or chest port sites (doesn’t leave a whole lot of comfortable options right now). liddy and dan slept next to me on the couch. she has not been able to sleep in her room for about a week now- plus, we like having her close to us. all that work to get her on a good schedule over the past couple years now shot- oh well, as chris r. told me last night, she won’t be sleeping with us when she’s 18. then again, if she wants too…..:).
all last night, i could hear lydia breathing, the heat go on, occasional sighs, but mostly a song. liddy’s favorite movie for months now (even before the movie came out!) is charlotte’s web. every time charlotte sings while spinning her web, liddy says “it’s not over”. i keep hearing:
” How very special are we
For just a moment to be
Part of life’s eternal rhyme
How very special are we
To have on our family tree
Mother Earth and Father Time”
no, my sweet lydia, it’s not over!!!!!
11 Comments
January 19, 2007 at 2:59 pm
A candle is lit for you here on my desk in Virginia — light to you on this first day of chemo !!
January 19, 2007 at 3:03 pm
Good morning to you Leanne, Dan and adorable Lydia! I have been keeping in touch with Marla to get updates on how all of you are doing and I really appreciate this blog so we can get information first hand. I want you to know that you are recieving light and healing prayers from everyone we share your story with here in Virginia. I see the three of you many times a day laughing, happy, healthy, cancer FREE! A given that you are on the other side of this challenge and have triumphed. TRIUMPH, what a powerful word. I see the cancer leaving your body. Giving it permission to leave. It was not invited. It will not be back. This is your body! We will continue to send all of you positive thoughts during these difficult times and far into the future. And yes, I believe your little Angel is watching over you and will help you heal.
Lots of love,
Amy, Darell and Carter
January 19, 2007 at 4:07 pm
i’m ready. let’s go.
January 19, 2007 at 4:21 pm
weinshenkers,
the cancer cells growing in leanne have no idea. no idea whose body they invaded, no clue about the family and friends that surround her, and no knowledge of the drugs that are dripping towards them. that’s good. they don’t need to know. because soon, they will be gone. leanne, in one small way, it IS over-over for them. just beginning for you.
we love you
January 19, 2007 at 4:50 pm
Leanne, Dan & Lydia-
Your strength and courage are remarkable. I’ve been thinking for days how best to communicate with you all via humor, prayers…humor and prayers. I’ve largely resorted to brewing a daily cup of Festivitea (I will admit to having a bit left over after my buying spree) and just thinking how blessed I am to know the three of you and send all the positive thoughts I can muster your way.
Lots of love, Kimmie
January 19, 2007 at 5:00 pm
Though we see each other rarely at KP, please know that we are praying for the 4 of you- the 3 of you as you battle each and every day, and your angel above, helping to wrap you in a warm embrace of healing from above.
May this first day of chemo be the beginning of a beautiful battle that ends victoriously, with the 4 of you outshining this horrible thing we call cancer.
Thank you for allowing us to come along on this battle to help cheer you on.
Many blessings, prayers and cheer coming your way,
Ryan, Mandy and Carter Sevier
January 19, 2007 at 5:14 pm
Dear Lee, Danny, Lydia and Little Angel
From the 3rd floor in Philly to the 12th floor in Denver, I send you all my love and strength — today and every day.
Candles are burning in Philadelphia. Music is playing. Songs are being sung, in hope and in celebration of the healing that is so clearly already happening. I’d pack my dancing shoes for your party, but I’ve already got them on, victory-dancing around the house in your honor. I’m ready to dance my way all the way to Denver when the time comes.
Shabbat is coming — a time when, it is said, we are each accompanied by “extra angels.” I’m thinking they’ve already arrived by your side — why wait for sundown when the candles are already lit everywhere, and when you have your Own special guide to bring them flocking to you?
Blessings for this First Day on the 12th floor. I wish you ease and peace and the strength of the warriors you are. Know that we all stand with you. We’re fighting by your side. And we’re holding you in the arms of love, all at the same time.
Laurie
January 19, 2007 at 8:17 pm
Leanne,
I’ve thought of you with every patient I’ve seen today. Every person I’ve tried to help and heal with my hands. I hope you can feel my hands all the way in Denver!
Sara
January 19, 2007 at 10:12 pm
Dear Lee, Dan, and Lydia,
Tonight I will go to a Caribbean service at Beth El to send some good energies through those steel drums and maracas. Baltimore Hebrew will also be praying for you. Ira said that you were getting a good cocktail—very encouraging! I’ll bring the maracas home tonight to send when you have the survivors party.
Hugs,
Phyllis
January 20, 2007 at 2:02 am
You don’t know me, but I found out about your blog through Joe. I just wanted to say that you also have thoughts and prayers coming to/for you up to the mountains of Colorado from sea-level Miami, that I am so sad and sorry you have to go through this, but that I am very grateful that you are sharing your story in this way. I wish you lots of strength and love and faith.
January 20, 2007 at 4:07 pm
How very special we are
To have on our family tree
Lydia Dan and Lee!!!
We believe in the power of love!!!
You can do it!!!!
We are with you,
Shlomit
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